20th May 2020, 11:54 AM
(This post was last modified: 22nd May 2020, 11:21 AM by Forseti. Edited 12 times in total.
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before reading: i apologize for the long post but i never took the time to give my perspective on things even after i was unbanned 5 or so years ago. i was initially going to post this in the Historical References Guide thread, but as the post grew longer with more details i figured a blog would be much more sensible.
in the paragraph about me it says i was demodded and immediately banned on PR2 by the super mods/admins (melanie, b@by*G, and e46m3), but i wasn't banned by them. i'm surprised i never stated this correction after all these years. my memory is fuzzy about this next detail but some time later i was told i could've potentially just been a mod again, at least in theory, so there's no way that i got banned right away by them. i do feel like one of them said that to me as they demodded me. it was us 4 in the mod chat in PR2, they told me to join it to let me know they were aware of my account sharing and told me that i was being demodded. i was so upset that i started crying even though i could've just been a normal player lmao
the rest is true however. for some additional insight, i completely forgot that i was handing out random bans to people my friends didn't like. those friends were the same edgy people from SavsAwesomeClub (the paragraph underneath mine in the OP) and they were telling me what i should do to get back at the super mods and community while i was still a forum mod. i went along with them listing off people to ban that they didn't like for very petty reasons and they were frustrated that another mod was instantly unbanning them. so, XPA! (former mod) suggested that i prune the forums since, unlike bans, it cannot be reversed. eventually Jiggmin got on the forums to demod me. while typing this post i was about to say it was him that banned me on PR2, but i remember now that it actually wasn't him. in gloriously stupid irony XPA! was actually the one who banned me on PR2 right after i did the pruning. i was just sitting in chat not doing anything and he typed along a bit until he said "oh shit" which was his way of being like, well i guess i gotta do this to punish you. i don't really understand why because if Jiggmin wanted me banned on PR2 then that's up to him, but i guess someone had to do it. it just sucked knowing he was the one who suggested the pruning and he suddenly banned me on PR2. i wasn't going to do anything malicious as a member, especially not on PR2, and within days i was already making forum alts posting apologies and getting instantly banned for it every time, which was really, really frustrating.
in all honesty i think i avoided my part in the Historical References Guide over the years because it portrayed the wrong image of me. despite being young i tried to always show a sociable and friendly side because i felt PR2 and JV were a great place for me to spread positivity, even to this day. i've also shown other traits of myself in this community in the past: i'm all about having fun even if it's at my own expense, which led to me foolishly sharing my mod account; i adapt to others after i understand them, which led to me being a part of the wrong group; and my fatal flaw was the rush of a 12 year old's emotions after being demodded. all in all i felt ashamed of everything and that's probably why i never wanted to correct the information, in the past i would've preferred if it just didn't exist. i used to feel like it damaged my reputation and that there was no escaping how i'll always be that kid who pruned the forums. the worst part was the screenshot at the end of it all, i was just going with the flow and basically regurgitating the usual stupid stuff that was said by my friend group since i was the younger and more impressionable one. "for the epic lulz," "it's hilarious XD," and mentioning ellie and XPA! as fellow mods who can "raise hell" just because they were a part of that chat. ellie was actually very polite and XPA! wasn't too terrible, just strange. he's a scummy guy for outside reasons that i won't get into on a public forum.
with all of that said, thanks for reading if you made it this far! i don't think i ever took the time to publicly clear the air about that whole event. i wish i had screenshots of everything as proof but i never thought about it in the moment with how emotional i got. the only thing i screenshotted was the page for forum pruning, i can try to look for that but it's nothing too remarkable.
in the paragraph about me it says i was demodded and immediately banned on PR2 by the super mods/admins (melanie, b@by*G, and e46m3), but i wasn't banned by them. i'm surprised i never stated this correction after all these years. my memory is fuzzy about this next detail but some time later i was told i could've potentially just been a mod again, at least in theory, so there's no way that i got banned right away by them. i do feel like one of them said that to me as they demodded me. it was us 4 in the mod chat in PR2, they told me to join it to let me know they were aware of my account sharing and told me that i was being demodded. i was so upset that i started crying even though i could've just been a normal player lmao
the rest is true however. for some additional insight, i completely forgot that i was handing out random bans to people my friends didn't like. those friends were the same edgy people from SavsAwesomeClub (the paragraph underneath mine in the OP) and they were telling me what i should do to get back at the super mods and community while i was still a forum mod. i went along with them listing off people to ban that they didn't like for very petty reasons and they were frustrated that another mod was instantly unbanning them. so, XPA! (former mod) suggested that i prune the forums since, unlike bans, it cannot be reversed. eventually Jiggmin got on the forums to demod me. while typing this post i was about to say it was him that banned me on PR2, but i remember now that it actually wasn't him. in gloriously stupid irony XPA! was actually the one who banned me on PR2 right after i did the pruning. i was just sitting in chat not doing anything and he typed along a bit until he said "oh shit" which was his way of being like, well i guess i gotta do this to punish you. i don't really understand why because if Jiggmin wanted me banned on PR2 then that's up to him, but i guess someone had to do it. it just sucked knowing he was the one who suggested the pruning and he suddenly banned me on PR2. i wasn't going to do anything malicious as a member, especially not on PR2, and within days i was already making forum alts posting apologies and getting instantly banned for it every time, which was really, really frustrating.
in all honesty i think i avoided my part in the Historical References Guide over the years because it portrayed the wrong image of me. despite being young i tried to always show a sociable and friendly side because i felt PR2 and JV were a great place for me to spread positivity, even to this day. i've also shown other traits of myself in this community in the past: i'm all about having fun even if it's at my own expense, which led to me foolishly sharing my mod account; i adapt to others after i understand them, which led to me being a part of the wrong group; and my fatal flaw was the rush of a 12 year old's emotions after being demodded. all in all i felt ashamed of everything and that's probably why i never wanted to correct the information, in the past i would've preferred if it just didn't exist. i used to feel like it damaged my reputation and that there was no escaping how i'll always be that kid who pruned the forums. the worst part was the screenshot at the end of it all, i was just going with the flow and basically regurgitating the usual stupid stuff that was said by my friend group since i was the younger and more impressionable one. "for the epic lulz," "it's hilarious XD," and mentioning ellie and XPA! as fellow mods who can "raise hell" just because they were a part of that chat. ellie was actually very polite and XPA! wasn't too terrible, just strange. he's a scummy guy for outside reasons that i won't get into on a public forum.
with all of that said, thanks for reading if you made it this far! i don't think i ever took the time to publicly clear the air about that whole event. i wish i had screenshots of everything as proof but i never thought about it in the moment with how emotional i got. the only thing i screenshotted was the page for forum pruning, i can try to look for that but it's nothing too remarkable.