20th May 2020, 11:54 AM
(This post was last modified: 28th November 2024, 6:34 PM by Forseti. Edited 13 times in total.
Edit Reason: phrasing fixes in 2024 lol !!!
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before reading: i apologize for the long post but i never took the time to give my perspective on things even after i was unbanned 5 or so years ago. i was initially going to post this in the Historical References Guide thread, but as the post grew longer with more details i figured a blog would be much more sensible.
in the paragraph about me it says i was demodded and immediately banned on PR2 by the super mods/admins (melanie, b@by*G, and e46m3), but i wasn't banned by them. i'm surprised i never stated this correction after all these years. my memory is fuzzy about this next detail but some time later i was told i could've potentially just been a mod again, at least in theory, so there's no way that i got banned right away by them. i do feel like one of them said that i could be a mod again as it was all happening. it was us 4 in the mod chat in PR2, they told me to join it to let me know they were aware of my account sharing and told me that i was being demodded. i was so upset that i started crying even though i could've just been a normal player lmao
and for added context - i got demodded because i was friends with two people who did "simming" and they helped me rank up, so i felt i owed them something and like an idiot i gave them the password to a random unused moderator account i had on PR2. i put way too much trust into them after it devolved into letting them use my main account. any time i mentioned changing my password to put a stop to it, they'd threaten to tell the super mods about it and get me demodded.
the rest is true however. for some additional insight, i completely forgot that i was handing out random forum bans to people my friends didn't like. those friends were the same edgy people from SavsAwesomeClub (the paragraph underneath mine in the OP) and they were telling me what i should do to get back at the super mods and community while i was still a forum mod. i went along with them listing off people to ban that they didn't like for very petty reasons and they were frustrated that another mod (Jestes??? idk who) was instantly unbanning them. so XPA, a former mod who was still a mod at the time lol, suggested that i prune the forums. unlike bans, it cannot be reversed. eventually after it happened, Jiggmin got on the forums to demod me. while typing this post i was about to say it was him that banned me on PR2, but i remember now that it actually wasn't him. in gloriously stupid irony XPA was actually the one who banned me on PR2 right after i did the pruning. i was just sitting in chat not doing anything and he joked along a bit until he said "oh shit" which i guess was his way of being like, welp guess i gotta feign ignorance and do this to punish you. if Jiggmin wanted me banned on PR2 then that should've been up to him, but someone would've done it so whatever. it just sucked knowing he was the one who suggested the pruning in the first place and then suddenly banned me on PR2 when i enjoyed playing the game. i wasn't going to do anything malicious as a member, especially not on PR2, and within days i was already making forum alts posting apologies and getting instantly banned for it every time, which was very very frustrating.
in all honesty i think i avoided my section in the Historical References Guide over the years because it portrayed the wrong image of me and was a source of shame. despite being young and troubled, i tried to always be sociable and friendly because i felt PR2 and JV were great places for me to actually get to socialize and spread positivity, even to this day. i've also shown other negative traits of myself in this community in the past: i'm all about having a good time even if it's at my own expense, which led to me making a handful of stupid decisions as a moderator regardless of my age at the time; i adapt to others after i understand them, which led to me being a part of the wrong group as a vulnerable preteen; and my fatal flaw was the rush of emotions after being caught and demodded, and the suggestion of revenge that i fell victim to due to peer pressure. all in all i felt ashamed of everything and that's probably why i never wanted to correct the information, in the past i would've preferred if it just didn't exist. i used to feel like it damaged my reputation and that there was no escaping how i'll always be that kid who pruned the forums. the worst part was the screenshot at the end of it all, i was just playing into how my friends acted and basically regurgitating the usual stupid stuff they'd say since i was the younger (youngest?) and more impressionable one. "for the epic lulz," "it's hilarious XD," and mentioning ellie and XPA as fellow mods who can "raise hell" just because they were a part of that chat. XPA is a scummy person for further outside reasons that i won't get into on a public forum, but ellie was actually uninvolved and a very polite person overall.
with all of that said, thanks for reading if you made it this far! i don't think i ever took the time to publicly clear the air about that whole event. i always wished that i had screenshots of everything as proof but i never thought about it in the moment with how emotional i got and uh... you know, being barely 12 years old. the only thing i screenshotted was the forum pruning page, i could try to look for that but it's nothing too remarkable.
in the paragraph about me it says i was demodded and immediately banned on PR2 by the super mods/admins (melanie, b@by*G, and e46m3), but i wasn't banned by them. i'm surprised i never stated this correction after all these years. my memory is fuzzy about this next detail but some time later i was told i could've potentially just been a mod again, at least in theory, so there's no way that i got banned right away by them. i do feel like one of them said that i could be a mod again as it was all happening. it was us 4 in the mod chat in PR2, they told me to join it to let me know they were aware of my account sharing and told me that i was being demodded. i was so upset that i started crying even though i could've just been a normal player lmao
and for added context - i got demodded because i was friends with two people who did "simming" and they helped me rank up, so i felt i owed them something and like an idiot i gave them the password to a random unused moderator account i had on PR2. i put way too much trust into them after it devolved into letting them use my main account. any time i mentioned changing my password to put a stop to it, they'd threaten to tell the super mods about it and get me demodded.
the rest is true however. for some additional insight, i completely forgot that i was handing out random forum bans to people my friends didn't like. those friends were the same edgy people from SavsAwesomeClub (the paragraph underneath mine in the OP) and they were telling me what i should do to get back at the super mods and community while i was still a forum mod. i went along with them listing off people to ban that they didn't like for very petty reasons and they were frustrated that another mod (Jestes??? idk who) was instantly unbanning them. so XPA, a former mod who was still a mod at the time lol, suggested that i prune the forums. unlike bans, it cannot be reversed. eventually after it happened, Jiggmin got on the forums to demod me. while typing this post i was about to say it was him that banned me on PR2, but i remember now that it actually wasn't him. in gloriously stupid irony XPA was actually the one who banned me on PR2 right after i did the pruning. i was just sitting in chat not doing anything and he joked along a bit until he said "oh shit" which i guess was his way of being like, welp guess i gotta feign ignorance and do this to punish you. if Jiggmin wanted me banned on PR2 then that should've been up to him, but someone would've done it so whatever. it just sucked knowing he was the one who suggested the pruning in the first place and then suddenly banned me on PR2 when i enjoyed playing the game. i wasn't going to do anything malicious as a member, especially not on PR2, and within days i was already making forum alts posting apologies and getting instantly banned for it every time, which was very very frustrating.
in all honesty i think i avoided my section in the Historical References Guide over the years because it portrayed the wrong image of me and was a source of shame. despite being young and troubled, i tried to always be sociable and friendly because i felt PR2 and JV were great places for me to actually get to socialize and spread positivity, even to this day. i've also shown other negative traits of myself in this community in the past: i'm all about having a good time even if it's at my own expense, which led to me making a handful of stupid decisions as a moderator regardless of my age at the time; i adapt to others after i understand them, which led to me being a part of the wrong group as a vulnerable preteen; and my fatal flaw was the rush of emotions after being caught and demodded, and the suggestion of revenge that i fell victim to due to peer pressure. all in all i felt ashamed of everything and that's probably why i never wanted to correct the information, in the past i would've preferred if it just didn't exist. i used to feel like it damaged my reputation and that there was no escaping how i'll always be that kid who pruned the forums. the worst part was the screenshot at the end of it all, i was just playing into how my friends acted and basically regurgitating the usual stupid stuff they'd say since i was the younger (youngest?) and more impressionable one. "for the epic lulz," "it's hilarious XD," and mentioning ellie and XPA as fellow mods who can "raise hell" just because they were a part of that chat. XPA is a scummy person for further outside reasons that i won't get into on a public forum, but ellie was actually uninvolved and a very polite person overall.
with all of that said, thanks for reading if you made it this far! i don't think i ever took the time to publicly clear the air about that whole event. i always wished that i had screenshots of everything as proof but i never thought about it in the moment with how emotional i got and uh... you know, being barely 12 years old. the only thing i screenshotted was the forum pruning page, i could try to look for that but it's nothing too remarkable.
