How are you feeling today?

[Janelle]

Thanks for actually reading it : D I really did enjoy reading all of it.

The reason why I haven't played is that my school Chromebook, the thing I'm doing this on, just can't get Linux, can't download it because it's iOS, and ruffle or whatever still isn't working on it yet. And since this is a school computer, I can't download anything, except in the play store. Good thing the only thing that has flash player on it is the bubble popping thing at the top right under the community tab, so I can still check the forums thankfully. 

One day, when I get or buy my own computer, this will be one of the first things that I get if I still remember this (hopefully I will), and even if I can't get something compatible with it, then I can still check to forums. Even if playing the game doesn't work out, I will be here, the twelve-year-old, checking in on people. Not because I need to, but because I believe in everyone reading this post. The people on the forum. The people that I may never know in real life, but can still talk to half-way across the world. 

I guess I try to help people. Help people on their journey, while my life might be just decent. I think it is an act of common decency. Helping other people I never knew, nor will probably ever know, just be that little birch leaf. Floating down softly along the stream, getting to the next pitstop in their lives. I hope I can be that person to look at the world and do just one simple thing - Push others down their own stream, waiting till I can get on mine.

Ahhhh I see. Well, we'll always be here and I hope you/ we can get that stuff figured out with PR2 soon
Thank you for being here for everyone, I'm sure it means a lot to us all ^^
I can't wait to see what the rest of 2021 holds for us.

Thanks you guys. Yeah, I just have to take it one day at a time. I have to realize that I'll be happier if I keep some motivation. I don't want to be uncomfortable in my skin, literally. Nothing came between my friend and I. Actually, it was probably my fault. I've been sleeping in so often, we haven't had time to talk much.

As for my wrists, they don't hurt much unless I do something really strenuous. I still can't play games like PR2, unfortunately. Too many rapid wrist movements required to press the arrow keys. I took occupational therapy for them, and that seemed to help a bit. Luckily, I got financial assistance for them since my income is pretty low.

There's things I want to say to people, but I'm too shy to do it. Too shy to ask out girls, and too shy to ask my supervisor for a promotion. He promoted someone who hasn't worked there as long as me, presumably because I don't talk very much. The person he promoted is much more social than me. If I could just crawl out of my hole and talk to people... maybe I would be a happier person. :/

He probably doesn't think I'm capable of operating a line because it requires wrist movement. Maybe that's what my problem is. Maybe I'm too afraid of rejection. Maybe I'm too afraid I'll say something stupid. Why is it so easy for me to talk on forum sites, but nowhere else? Anyway, it's the weekend. I hope I can keep myself from getting bored. I just want you guys to know that I also read every post, although I might not respond to them all. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend.

I totally get the shyness part. Or maybe it's just my anxiety? I don't know. But I am also way too shy to ask people of some things... especially at work. I *hate* going to my boss or my manager and asking them something... or why something happened.

It's also super easy for me to talk on forum sites more than IRL, and I'm unsure why. I guess maybe because we grew up online and talking to people from around the world became our thing, our habit? I hope you have a wonderful weekend as well ^^