How are you feeling today?

[Vipa]

I miss her

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I would like somebody to decide whether I really would like to suicide or not - I have been depressed these weeks, or months if worse so I have made people in TWOW Community, the Esolangs community, the CGCC Discord server, and many others uncomfortable.

[~JBG~]

I would like somebody to decide whether I really would like to suicide or not - I have been depressed these weeks, or months if worse so I have made people in TWOW Community, the Esolangs community, the CGCC Discord server, and many others uncomfortable.

Sucks to hear you've been having a rough time for the past while.

I understand how it is to feel this way and how difficult it can be but I think you should not make any rash decisions.

I'd recommend that you try to contact your national suicide prevention lifeline, you are in Japan if I recall correctly https://health.gaijinpot.com/suicide-prevention/

If you ever want to talk about it feel free to send me a private message.

[Simon]

I would like somebody to decide whether I really would like to suicide or not - I have been depressed these weeks, or months if worse so I have made people in TWOW Community, the Esolangs community, the CGCC Discord server, and many others uncomfortable.

Do not commit suicide.

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I have been used to experience lots of suffering; idk whether my amount is greater or less than others. Obtw my mother repayed me the debt and we went to a local shop to have a nice day today.

[SebastianPolak12]

I would like somebody to decide whether I really would like to suicide or not - I have been depressed these weeks, or months if worse so I have made people in TWOW Community, the Esolangs community, the CGCC Discord server, and many others uncomfortable.

I know we used to have a bad moment in a blog post you had, but don't do it, man. There's always going to be some bad things in life, but you're gonna get through them 99% of the time. And this comes from a person who had been through a lot

[jake709]

Like absolute trash. Destroyed the trust of some of the closest people to me and it's all my own fault. There's literally nowhere to go from here.

[Colind]

Like absolute trash. Destroyed the trust of some of the closest people to me and it's all my own fault. There's literally nowhere to go from here.

As a person who also got in line for all similar but different experience from 'Depression' I can strongly tell you that there nothing that life will throw at you that you can't find an answer/solution to even if it goes against 'good or bad'

I personally do not know you Jake, but I want you to know that you're not absolute trash and if you feel that you're.. then you already know what you need to do to not make yourself feel that way. 

Respectfully get up from your 'bottom' and get up and retry. In life people are so worry about being "perfect & normal" when there isn't a person/couple or whatever that fits that to a tea. We all have similar problems and some are light or heavy than others but the experience is the same as in emotions. 

I went on that 'Depression' ride from Dec of 2023 and just barely got out of it the start of this month. It'll take time but everyone who got themselves into a situation can also get them out. 

For awhile I was using a stupid 'drill bit' to cut myself on the left side of the wrist, then did a few suicide attempts. There was a moment on one attempt that really put things into my mind where this doesn't need to be the end. A lot of people think (me included before my experience) suicide is not an option but honestly when you feel in the moment that you've nothing and no one is wanting to help is not that you should give in is that when you need to see that nothing everything is black and white and everyone has had this in their lifetime and just needed to find a way/method to get out of it.  

I had depression when I was in high school (2010) & life was throwing these things at me with everyone in my circle and it took this one to made me not wanting to execute because I knew the people who were going to get left behind will be upset at me but at the same time I know if I didn't come into their life things would be better but we cannot hold that to ourselves. 

I have learned the hardest way for me that it's okay to ask for Help, it's not admitting that you're weak it's the opposite and I want others to know that you can get through this. 

Anyways, I hope you're doing well and things are slowly getting better for you. 

Thanks,

Carlos

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Do you want me to go **** myself?

[Dan-83]

Do you want me to go **** myself?

No, don’t do it pls. Everything is going to be ok 🙏🏾

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No, don’t do it pls. Everything is going to be ok 🙏🏾

Still thinking of harming myself for world peace because what else can I do? Btw haven't harmed myself physically yet

[Janelle]

Still thinking of harming myself for world peace because what else can I do? Btw haven't harmed myself physically yet

Please, please, PLEASE do not harm yourself. Please speak to somebody about how your feeling. I promise life gets better <3

[Mia]

We just broke up

[LCPD]

We just broke up

sorry to hear that

[Camer the Dragon]

Still thinking of harming myself for world peace because what else can I do? Btw haven't harmed myself physically yet

Harming yourself isn't gonna result in any world peace
If there are things about the world that you think should change, then you gotta be there to help drive that change (but not in an extreme way)
I would also advise taking the advice others have posted here and on the old blog (although most of it has been said in here too if you don't have that anymore) in terms of resources that can help how you're feeling currently

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Do Americans and Europeans hate Asians?

[LCPD]

Do Americans and Europeans hate Asians?

Can only speak for America but the answer is no.

[SebastianPolak12]

Do Americans and Europeans hate Asians?

Can only speak for Europe but the answer is no.

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Last night I made a famous moderator (Fami Faro) on a community (Immitate Community) uncomfortable and mad and he replied me he won't receive my apologies; this is his message before he blocked me

Are my word and action valueless?

Sent my messages as if I needed help, not as if I apologized him for my behavior the day before yesterday

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Can only speak for Europe but the answer is no.

Then what was that attitude of judo judges in the Paris Olympics games?