We broke up

[Mia]

I mentioned it in a thread, but I thought I'd expand upon it in a blog.

Zack and I broke up on July 28th. We were together a little over a year. I felt like the relationship was going really well up until late May. That's when I returned from visiting him at a convention. He wanted more free time to himself, and I wanted someone who could be there for me. We just weren't compatible at that point, but I tried to make it work because I still loved him. I think he realized the pressure I was putting on him, cause he broke it off. After he broke it off, I asked if we could stay friends. He agreed, but still, I was too emotional. At this point, I'm not sure if a friendship would work. I'm don't know if Zack will read this, but I truly am sorry for how I handled things at the end. I wish him nothing but the best.

Anyway, this whole thing has put quite the toll on my mental health. I went to the hospital twice due to panic attacks. I am underweight due to loss of appetite. I got prescribed 2 different anxiety medications, and I'm getting a referral to see a therapist in 2 weeks. If you're wondering why I've been so absent on PR2 and Discord, this is why. I haven't really felt like doing anything. At this point, I'm just hanging in there until my mental health can improve, so I can get things back to feeling normal.

Thanks for reading, have a wonderful day

[MoonFiredk]

Im sorry to hear that Mia <3 It will be okay, and right now it hurts, but you will feel better, and there is so many others out there that there will be there for you <3

[Mia]

I haven't been back to the hospital, but I'm still not in great shape. I'm on an antidepressant and an anxiety medicine. They gave me a beta blocker for my increased heartbeat, but it gave me side effects. I'm eating slightly better than I was, but still no actual meals. The referral I got for the therapist can't see me until October, so now I have to try to find someone else.

Honestly at this point, I don't even want to reach out to people because I feel like I'm bothering them with my issues.

[Adulock77]

Honestly at this point, I don't even want to reach out to people because I feel like I'm bothering them with my issues.

No don't say that... You are not and will never be bothering me or anyone if you reach out to talk about what you are going through. If you need to talk to somebody, remember that we are all here for you Mia! :]
Send me a message on Discord and I will definitely read it and get back to you as soon as I possibly can!

[MoonFiredk]

I haven't been back to the hospital, but I'm still not in great shape. I'm on an antidepressant and an anxiety medicine. They gave me a beta blocker for my increased heartbeat, but it gave me side effects. I'm eating slightly better than I was, but still no actual meals. The referral I got for the therapist can't see me until October, so now I have to try to find someone else.

Honestly at this point, I don't even want to reach out to people because I feel like I'm bothering them with my issues.

Hey Mia <3

I have sent you some messages on Discord <3 Check them when you feel for it <3

[LCPD]

Don't feel like you are bothering people if you want to reach out to them. They can make time for you just to vent. True friends will always stick by you through thick and thin.

[Different]

@Mia we’ve been friends for 2 years, so you’re more than welcome to reach out to me as well. The world will always throw you nasty curves to attempt to catch you in devastating pitfalls. But the most significant thing to remember is how you deal with them that matters the most.

Now for your well-being, I really do hope you feel better. Antidepressants and anxiety medicine may somewhat fix the problem (even though they’re prone to giving you side effects), but it’s not really a guaranteed fix for the solution. The symptoms sound like distress and depression, but the root cause sounds more like fear of getting your feelings hurt by the people that you care about.

Solution: medication won’t fix the problem. Try taking up boxing lessons. It’ll build up adrenaline inside of you and it allows you to manage stressful situations. Not necessarily in a way where you want to intentionally inflict pain on somebody, but more of like giving you the power to dominate depression and anxiety. You’ll feel great because you’ll have that adrenaline rush that allows you to control your emotions.

Boxing is like a drug that’ll take your mind off of the root cause of the problem. If you don’t do this, then the anxiety cycle could happen with somebody else.

[bls1999]

I'm so sorry to hear this, @Mia. Breakups suck, and this one sounds like it's especially tough. Please know that you have a community here that supports you and wants to see you healthy. You are not a burden. Wishing you peace, good health, and happiness. 🫂

[Mia]

I wanted to sincerely thank all of the people that reached out to me, and the people I reached out to. It genuinely means so much to me. I am starting to see some improvement. I am getting my appetite back, at least. And while some days still feel pretty rough, I find it comforting having so many people care about me and taking time to listen. 💛

[LCPD]

I wanted to sincerely thank all of the people that reached out to me, and the people I reached out to. It genuinely means so much to me. I am starting to see some improvement. I am getting my appetite back, at least. And while some days still feel pretty rough, I find it comforting having so many people care about me and taking time to listen. 💛

Glad to read that update. Wishing you nothing but the best.

[Nagato]

I am really sorry to hear that and I hope things get better for you. Break ups are one of the hardest things ever, I hope you are being kind to yourself.