Do Not Choose Evil

[Minimania]

Unsure if you will see this but I just have to say that you know viscerally how sin ruins so much. How lying corrupts, how fear enables, how pride dissolves and weakens relationships, how sexual immorality damages emotionally and physically. Even being years ago, the pain and guilt still is there in some way. I am glad to hear your resolution to avoid such things.

We can't avoid ever making mistakes because we are fallen beings but God has made a way for us to be free from that bondage and to be forgiven of them. You could get reconciliation from all these people mentioned here but that would not matter compared to being forgiven by God. He knows all the terrible, terrible things I've done too. But putting faith in Jesus Christ is the only way God has made us able to be reconciled to him. Jesus calls the whole world to himself but especially those who are weary and burdened by sins.

Most people think "Eh, I'm doing pretty good, I don't need religion" or "I try to be a good person so it'll probably be fine when I die" or "There isn't any concrete proof so". We naturally want to live our lives without God and avoid him.

But God is near to the brokenhearted, to those weighed down in guilt.

I believe in reincarnation, and that belief isn't rooted in a rejection of God. My hopes are that some day in this life and in every new life I live, I'll find something to love about it. However, I still don't believe in God. And if in saying that I am doomed to eternal damnation, fire and brimstone, then that's where I belong. I don't belong where he is. Even if the others forgave me, if God forgave me, or even if I forgave myself, I still wouldn't belong where he is, where the others will go.

I'm fully aware of my derangement. But I still persist with the hope that I can move on.